I Got a War in My Mind

You cant please everyone right? when everything becomes so clear in the end, and you start realize that something too much is not good at all. sometimes, when you gonna make  some move, wanna put it down, wanna throw them, all you can do is... cant. You cant because the other side of ur heart always screaming why u r so weak? U have to try more! Dont u remember how much adam sandler tryin to made lucy realize that there is sth between them. And after all, u start it again and again. And also, hurt, again.
Mind. That hurts u. Someone said that brain keeping us from broken heart, but it just... seems doesnt work at me. Bc the more i use my brain the more i hurt myself myheart even mymind. Only if I can let this easily. I mean, dont take this shit seriously, do not overthinking about it, do not care all the senseless guy hs done, only if I can. Oh God. Now I start to believe that everything is better when u act dont care. But how??? Am I sound like a pathetic girl who beg him back to the old? Yes I am. How I cud be so shit like this. I supposed to be do not write this and act like im okay and saying hi or calling him or smile at him everytime we bump, but I just cant fake being okay.

Yeah it is right that the worst battle is between what u r feeling inside and what u realize/know. It has been happen to me zillion time. Im battling with dream and realita. I got a war in my mind. Always.

well, you take the game, douche, let s play.  If u r thinking that u r the most evil you r wrong, bc nobody knows what happen next right? Who knows that this pathetic girl is the most evil in the world?  Who knows. So lets play our game.