Wednesday, 22 October 2014

Berteman Bintang


        Sudah beberapa hari ruangan di sudut sana kosong. Yang punya sedang menikmati hari. ah ya, kau tau? Hari-harinya begitu indah beberapa hari terakhir. Ia baru saja menyadari bahwa ternyata masih ada bintang di atas sana. Sang empunya baru menyadari bahwa balon-balon tipis nan rapuh yang terbuat dari bulir sabun itu terlalu sayang untuk dilewatkan. 
        Ya, seminggu belakangan ini, setiap sepulang kuliah, ia selalu ke tempat itu. Hanya untuk sekedar meniup balon sabun dan menikmati senja bersama terbenamnya matahari kemerahan. ah, rasanya seperti kuning telur yang menggemaskan. Lalu, beberapa saat kemudian tibalah waktunya ia menatap langit dan menghitung bintang-bintang di atas sana. Ternyata bintang masih ada, ia masih terlihat biru dan menyenangkan, serta kerlipnya yang menenangkan. Ke mana saja ia? Terlalu sibuk dengan kepedihan hati. 
        Kembali ke balon sabun, kalau saja dari dulu ia tahu bahwa hanya dengan meniup-niup sedotan ini bisa menghasilkan kebahagiaan tiada tara dan meluruhkan kepedihaan, ia tentu tak perlu semenyedihkan ini.

         Sekarang ia tersadar, tak semua kebahagiaan lahir dari hal yang besar. Dan baginya kini, bahagianya cukup dengan balon sabun dan berteman bintang. 

Tuesday, 21 October 2014

Sudah Bukan Kau

Sudah bukan kau,
Pagiku riuh sekarang
Riuh oleh sepi yang kutanam sendiri

Dulu tak ada hal seindah pagiku
Dulu.
Saat jarak rindu masih terlalu dekat untuk terasa
Walau mungkin hanya satu perindu

Menerbangkan rindu sampai ke langit tak terhingga,
Itu yang si perindu lakukan sekarang

Rindunya akan melayang-layang di atas sana
Dibiarkan sesiapa yang akan menyimpannya
Karena rindunya tak bertuan

Dan karena Tuan sudah terlalu sibuk sekarang.

Wednesday, 8 October 2014

Gonna Burn

This is not about with whom u finally end up. I was just too blind to see that that was a fake. All the words u were tryin to say, or the way you did to convince me that it was nothing. I know I hv no right to blame or doin sth bad to u but I was just... cant fake being okay. Maybe this is the time where I put all my hatred, even I know I shudnt do this but I, just wanna set my self free. Bc it is hard to heal all these things with you around me. I Dont wanna fall into ur another gravity, I gotta admit this: hate the people u love is kinda hardest thing to do. I might let the love in the air or let it burns with sunshine if we are 26374849495 kilometers apart. But we have 0 kilometer darling, thats the fckest thing I ever had. That is why I collect all the hatred, however the way it is. All I wanna do is get a lil hatred on you. And set my self free...

Friday, 3 October 2014

I Got a War in My Mind

You cant please everyone right? when everything becomes so clear in the end, and you start realize that something too much is not good at all. sometimes, when you gonna make  some move, wanna put it down, wanna throw them, all you can do is... cant. You cant because the other side of ur heart always screaming why u r so weak? U have to try more! Dont u remember how much adam sandler tryin to made lucy realize that there is sth between them. And after all, u start it again and again. And also, hurt, again.
Mind. That hurts u. Someone said that brain keeping us from broken heart, but it just... seems doesnt work at me. Bc the more i use my brain the more i hurt myself myheart even mymind. Only if I can let this easily. I mean, dont take this shit seriously, do not overthinking about it, do not care all the senseless guy hs done, only if I can. Oh God. Now I start to believe that everything is better when u act dont care. But how??? Am I sound like a pathetic girl who beg him back to the old? Yes I am. How I cud be so shit like this. I supposed to be do not write this and act like im okay and saying hi or calling him or smile at him everytime we bump, but I just cant fake being okay.

Yeah it is right that the worst battle is between what u r feeling inside and what u realize/know. It has been happen to me zillion time. Im battling with dream and realita. I got a war in my mind. Always.

well, you take the game, douche, let s play.  If u r thinking that u r the most evil you r wrong, bc nobody knows what happen next right? Who knows that this pathetic girl is the most evil in the world?  Who knows. So lets play our game.